100 WORDS: cigarette [heart] break

click,
light,
inhale...
the red burns cool and calm,
the night is cold,
all is chill...
i am trying so hard
to not like you or want you.
tap.
inhale...
everything is blurred...
all is chill.
but i am burning inside,
sitting here, skin to skin
tap.
the red light races to your lips,
inhale..inhale...
my breathing falters.
my eyes, they burn...
how can i explain that i....?
i cannot have what i...?
no tap. no ash.
nothing to blur the pain.
That which held fire,
seeks another hand.
holds it.
holds it.
and the night is so very cold.