100 WORDS: beauty in the breakdown

i am built up and i am ready
      to simply breakdown in this steady.
you slip right through my grasp
    and i see through the façade,
my eyes are captured steady in your gaze.
see i’m not ready to be over this
…it's over, isn't it?
all the times i thought i tried, i only let this pass
and all the times i waited out
          a moviescene long past
our ending should have been rewritten but
                    i am out of paper and pen.
i wish that i had felt this sooner
i wish i had the guts to....
                                                        back then.